One day until my impending doom...

and what doom is that? I bet you are wondering what could be so awful that I'm dreading it. IIITTTSSSS



my birthday.

I know I know, I sound crazy! But I'm afraid to get older.  I'm turning 19! 19! I've almost been on the planet for TWO decades! It scares me! Soon I'll be 30, 40, 50 and then dead. I have too many things to worry about, and I don't want to have to deal with getting older too.  I half expect to wake up with gray hair tomorrow.


I want to be like Peter Pan and never grow up.  Living in never-never land forever sounds great to me.  hey, maybe I'll become a fairy!

I think I'm just scared to leave my childhood, and my teenager-hood behind.  I feel like I have not accomplished anything that you are supposed to as a teenager, and now I have one year left to go crazy.  but will I make the most of the next 365 days to do all the crazy teenage things I have not done yet? Probably not I'm too scared and shy to do anything crazy. Maybe I'll wait till my roaring twenties to go crazy, who knows.  I just feel behind, and in adequate to be 19,  I'm too much of a child, and not enough of an adult.

We'll see how the next year goes.  Until then, I have 10 and a half hours left of being 18 years old. :/

Pascal!

So the movie Tangled came to our free theater here at UOP this weekend.  I had never wanted to see it when it was in theaters, but people started telling me how good it was.  They were right.
I saw it Friday night with my friend Robert, then I saw it AGAIN on Saturday night with some girls from Tridelta.  I am in love...with a chameleon named Pascal.

Isn't he adorable? I told Allie to get me a stuffed animal of him for my birthday.

Speaking of my Birthday, its on friday.  I'm not happy about it.  I dont want to be 19! I want to stay in the 18 year old bubble forever (actually I want to go back to the 17 year old bubble) My friends and family think I am crazy, they all say wait till you turn 21 to freak out then at least you can have fun.  I guess I'm just afraid to grow up and leave my childhood behind.  I have to now start actually thinking about life. eeeggh.  Its all down hill from here I guess...

Long Time

Wow its been a long time! I cant believe I have not posted in over a month! Time flies so fast.

Over the past month I have done many things:
-competed at KCACTF (I did not make it past the first round but now I know what to do for next time)
-made a BUNCH of new friends!
-was initiated in Delta Delta Delta!!!
-started the new member process for Theta Alpha Phi (theater fraternity)
-went on Spring Break (I cleaned my room the entire time, but I did go to Disneyland and bought an annual pass...anyone want to go?)
-Finally learned my lines for Arms and the Man
-Oh and I "married" one of my BFFLs ;) Ashley Bonda aka sweetiepop :)

On top of all that I have been super stressed about classes.  I'm afraid that I am going to FAIL all of them  (by failing I mean getting a C), I'm trying my hardest to keep all aspects of my life in place, but I fear that they are congealing together making it impossible for me to accomplish anything.

Good news is that I have some Girl Scout Cookies! Yumm!