feet. :/

So today, I did something I've never done something my entire life.  I quit an activity without seeing it through to the end.  I quit crew.  It was not  because I could not handle the workout, or I did not have the endurance or I did not like waking up at 4:50 in the morning.  It was because of my feet.  I have a condition called flat feet, or for those of you who do not know what that is, I do not have arches in my feet, so they pronate inward, causing pain like no other. I lived seventeen and a half years (of my 18) with pain. every. single. day.  I have a HUGE tolerance for pain, thanks to that. I have had two surgeries on my feet because of this condition and has only been in the last six months that I have not had pain. Which is a big deal.  

When I started crew, I did not think that I would have this issue since I'd be sitting in a boat, but it ended up being one.  The combination of the position of my feet, with the pressure I had to put on them while I rowed brought back the pain that I had thought I had ditched.  I tried to stick it out, but I realized that its not worth having the pain again.  I liked not having pain, not having the constant reminder of my defect, and when it came back I was super upset.  I called my mom this morning crying because I did  not want to quit, but I did not want to have the pain anymore.  We decided that in the long run, quitting would be better for me.

I actually liked being on a team for once, having a coach, having teammates, entering regattas, winning or losing at something.  I've never really had that experience, because of my feet.  I had to stop soccer because running hurt my feet and my knees, I had to quit dance because my feet hurt and the teacher did not understand.  My feet have dictated to me my athletic life, and sometimes I wish I had feet that were normal.  I want to be on a team, I want to be in shape, I want to be athletic. But my "disability" has prevented me from doing that stuff my entire life.  

People around me do not understand what I go through on a daily basis, my family understands to some extent, but they will never comprehend what I go through.  Other people I meet who have flat feet do not understand because their condition is not as severe as mine.  Even my podiatrist said that I had the worse case he had ever seen.  Though I wish I was born without this defect, I would not have my life any other way.  I know my feet have made me discover things about myself, and things that you do not think about that often.  I value every step I take, because these feet have taught me some valuable lessons.

I am really sad that I had to quit another sport due to this.  I liked crew, and I feel like I could have been good at it.  But I got a taste of a pain free life, and I want to indulge myself on it,  I know someday I'll find a sport or an athletic activity that I will be able to do.  I hope my teammates go on to have a wonderful season, and I'll be rooting for them all the way.

XOXO,

Kate

Another thought....

I know I'm not the only person who reads this now, because I have had several people come up to me and tell me about how they read my blog and liked the idea.  If you like it, go ahead and make a blog your self! It takes all of five minutes, and its a great way to procrastinate your homework.  And its here forever (unless you delete it) so in four years when you're graduating from college you can look back and read posts from your freshman year, and remember all the good times you had!  I know my blog is helping me work through thoughts in my head and it can help you work through things too. So my advice to everyone is to start a blog, it does not take long, but its a way for you to remember everything you have done.

Here's the link to creating a blog:

https://www.google.com/accounts/NewAccount?service=blogger&continue=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.blogger.com%2Floginz%3Fd%3D%252Fcreate-blog.g%26a%3DADD_SERVICE_FLAG&hl=en&sendvemail=true&followup=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.blogger.com%2Floginz%3Fd%3D%252Fhome%26a%3DSERVICE_ONLY&naui=8



I've done the first step for you, all you need to do now is fill in the information.  I hope to see you all on blogging soon! Let me know if you start one and I'll follow it. :)


XOXO,
Kate

Godspell!

Hello Lovies!

Godspell opened this Friday, and we had a pretty good sized house! I personally think we did a great job and I'm super excited for the shows this week.  After the first show they had a reception in the theater building, afterword, I stayed and helped cleaned up with some friends and we brought everything to Alison's apartment. We hung out there for a while and then we went to the townies and hung out at one of the guy's in the show's  place.  I had so much fun hanging out with everyone, even though we didn't do much.  I feel like I never get out here and it was nice to hang out with people other than the girls on my hall.  I hope I get to spend more time with these people, I know I'm going to be sad after Godspell closes and not being able to see all the conservatory kids all the time anymore.  I know that most of the cast disliked being in the show, but I enjoy it.  I love working with everyone and I'm sad to see that its almost over.  Even though our director's crazy and I hate my costume, I think its worth it, and I know that sounds funny because half the cast hates this entire experience, but I think that it was good for all of us, and whether we realize it or not, I think we all learned things about ourselves throughout the process.

I'm super excited for my family (the real one and the greek family) to come and see my play! I miss going to bbq's and parties and dinners with all of them, and I'm excited for them to come up and see my school environment, even if its just for a few days.  We're going into San Fran on Saturday before the show, and on Sunday we're going to a Kings game! Wooo!

Godspell closes on Saturday, and then Thanksgiving is next week! My god time has flown by! I get to see one of my best friends in the world next week when she flys in from Florida back to wonderful California! Apparently she was in Moorpark this past weekend and wanted me to come down and see her, but I couldn't because of the show, I hope she's not mad at me for that.


Alas, I have rambled on like I always do, and I probably repeated the same thought over and over. haha. I have to go write my 8 page research report! :/ wish me good luck!

XOXO,
Kate

Crazed.

Hello Lovies!

My life has been ridiculously busy the past week, and let me tell you, I am exhausted! Tech week started for Godspell and I feel as if I have had zero sleep.  I had to take the week off from Crew practice because I knew I would not be able to balance everything.  If you don't know me, then you should know that this is big news.  I never take time off for anything.  I always stretch myself thin going from activity to activity. I never give myself time to stop. ever.

Today my make-up class was cancelled so I got to sleep in...till noon! That is something that never happens, I'm always up around 7:30 reading or snoozing or lurking the internet.  But I got a solid 12 hours last night. And I'm still tired! I cannot wait for winter break when I can catch up on my rest and spend time with my family and friends back home.


Good news! I got a call back for the spring play "Arms and the Man" by George Bernard Shaw.  I really hope I get a part! The play is going to be so funny and I really want to be involved in it.

I had an interesting conversation with my friends the other night.  We were sitting in the Wemyss Lounge and they started asking me what I was planning to do with my life.  I thought it was weird because everyone knows that I want to be on Broadway. So I responded with that. But they were  like "what can you do with a theater degree?" I get the feeling that they think I wont succeed.  People do not realize that there are tons of things you can do with a theater degree.  Theatre is not only about acting, there are tons of other opportunities associated with it.  You can do the technical stuff (which I am learning to love), costuming, make-up, stage managing, stage hands, directing, producing, you can be a theater manager, you can own theaters and there are more things I just cant think of right now.  Many lawyers also do theater as undergrad, because it helps them learn stage presence, that they need in the court room.  I dont think my friends understand the passion I have for my craft.  There is nothing I would rather do with my  life than perform, I know what I'm getting myself into, but I have the drive and the fire in my belly to pursue it.  Something I know that they do not possess.  It takes a lot of courage to choose a career path that you know there is a 95% chance that you wont succeed.  But you have to strive to be in the 5% that do.  You have to make things happen for yourself, and I truly believe if you want something enough, then you will make it happen.  I know I will see my name in a playbill on Broadway one day, and as long as I see that dream, I know it will happen.

Another thing popped up in that conversation that has been bothering me.  One of my friends, M, suggested that we all go get massages at the end of the semester.  My other friend, R, was all for that idea, but I was like I cant afford it sorry. M and R looked at me questionably, they didnt understand that whenever I buy something for myself off campus, I'm paying for it with my own money. All of my friend's parents  have either given them a credit card to pay for stuff with, or they deposit money into their debit accounts every week/month.  My parents dont have the means to do that for me, and even if they did, I dont think they would.  But I wish that they did give me money in my debit account so I could go shopping or go do fun things with my friends.  But then again, I am going to an expensive school, and I am living on campus and my parents dont have alot of extra spending money to do that for me.  I understand all that, I've understood that all my life, but sometimes I wish that I did have that extra spening money and I could go and buy fun things with my friends. I'm tired of being responsible with everything because of my financial situations.  I want to buy something and not feel bad about spending the  money on it.  I guess you can say I know the value of a dollar, but sometimes I wish I still have to learn that lesson.

One of my best friends, Amanda, or Kylee as she is going by now, has followed in my footsteps and has started her own blog documenting her college experiences. If you are interested in reading her adventures here is the link to her blog:

http://californiakyleegoesfsu.blogspot.com/

Other than that I have nothing new to report.  I hope you all have a lovely day, and if I dont post tomorrow, then have a wonderful weekend!
Until next time.


XOXO,
Katie

Crew.

Ok so I know I have not posted in a while because I've been busy.  And I know thats a  lame excuse, but believe me its true. and the reason for my being busy is.....

I joined the UOP crew team.

I  know, those of you who know me mouths just dropped. Pick them up because its true.  I wake up at 4:50 in the morning and actually exercise.  I do not know what is more shocking, that I exercise or I wake up that early in the morning.

Its actually really cool, and its great exercise, I'm super excited to be in shape for once in my life.


Other news:

Aunt Freda's memorial service was  yesterday.  It was really weird being in her apartment with out her.  It was a sad day, but she lived a long, incredible life and it was her time.


Godspell opens next friday! I cannot believe it.  This semester is going by super fast, before I know it, it is going to be winter break!

I promise to update more often!

XOXO,
Kate