pin wheel.

I feel as if my life were a pin wheel.  When in the wind, the pin wheel goes round and round until all you see is a blur of colors.  Except the pin wheel is lucky, because when the wind stops, so does the spinning.  My life is like a pin wheel with a constant steady wind.  Always going, always turning.  It never stops.

I know I rant and complain about being busy all the time, but for old time sake, here I go again.

So I got a cold.  I know, it doesnt sound that bad. But I got the cold last wednesday.  and I had a pageant on Saturday. So if you put two and two together, the climax of my cold just happened to be on, you guessed it! Saturday.  But before I go into my day on Saturday, I have to tell you about my Friday.

Friday morning I woke up 9AM, with my cold, and thinking I was ready to take my math test at 11AM.  I take a dayquil and go to take a shower.  While I was shampooing my hair, I started getting dizzy.  My head was light and the shower stall was spinning.  I remember putting my hand against the wall of the shower to brace myself, and then it goes black, and I'm on the floor of the shower.  I stand up, and lean against the corner for support, but once again, I remember being on the floor.  The second time I stand up, I turn off the water (with shampoo in my hair) grab my towel, and slowly walk to my room.  I call my mom, and tell her I'm going to the wellness center and she calls them to tell them I was on my way.  Once there, they tell me I have to go to the Immediate Care, because I might have hit my head.  So public safety drives me across Stockton, to the nearest urgent care, where I wait for two hours to see a doctor.  Then they ask me a million questions, asking me if I was pregnant like 15 times (I'm pretty sure they didnt believe me when I said no), did a million tests (including an EKG and you guessed it, a pregnancy test) and drew blood.  Another hour goes by (mind you I have not eaten yet, all they would give me was juice) and the doctor comes in to tell me that I'm NOT pregnant (He seemed shocked) and that I had a Urinary Tract Infection.  I finally leave that place at 2:45, and when I get back to school, I leave again for my pageant rehearsal that ended at 11PM.  (Thank God they fed me).

On Saturday, I woke up, and as I said before, my cold was at its climax.  I go to my interview, and later on, the pageant.  I didn't perform as well as I could have.  I'm blaming the past 24 hours and the cold I was dying of.  I did not place, or win any extra awards.  This is a first.  I'm kind of bummed, and I'm starting to think that I'm wasting my time doing pageants.  But every time I think about quitting it, I think about how badly I want the crown, and the experience and it keeps me going.  I know I will win eventually.

On Sunday, My mom and Grandma and I saw No Strings Attached, it was a very cute movie.  We went to safeway and bought food for my dorm and then they left for good old Moorpark.
I wish they would come to visit me more often.  I know they're proud that I'm here by myself and I have not complained to them that I miss home like other kids my age they know have.  But I miss them, especially the weekends when nothings going on and they're out doing fun things at home.  Everyone up here goes home for the weekends or their parents come to them often, but I feel like I never see my family anymore.  I miss spending time with them.  And the worst thing is missing my dog.  Its easier the longer I'm away from them, but if I go home for a weekend or if I skype or talk to them on the phone it makes the home sick feeling come back.  Especially now that the Oscars are coming up.  If February 27th comes and I am not home, I swear I'm going to DIE.  The Oscars are my holiday.  Its our thing to have the extravagant party with all of our friends all dressed up eating costco snacks and drinking martinelli's.  My parents keep telling me that I should do a party in my dorm.  But its not the same.  Thats the one thing I look forward to every year, and all I want to do is go home for it.  Hopefully they'll let me. Hopefully.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not 'OMG I'm so home sick, I'm going to transfer to Moorpark Community at the end of the year' no. I love my school.  I love the experience I'm getting here.   I would make this decision all over again, if I had too. I'm just starting to realize what leaving home actually means, and the changes it brings.  I hate change, I think that why I'm pushing this oscar thing so much, I dont want my tradition to change.


Well I think I have ranted enough. I need to go to sleep. More later.

XOXO,

Kate

Sorority!

Hello Loves!

As I said in my last post I was rushing for a sorority.  And I would now like to take the time to formally introduce myself.  Hello, I'm Katie Woerner and I am a member of the Delta Delta Delta Sorority!

Ahh! I can't believe it.  It was a super hard decision to make and in the end, fate made the decision for me. I am so excited to get initiated and get to know all my new sisters and find out who my big is.  I'm so stoked.  But I promise you all, I am still the same Katie Woerner you know and love.  I'm just now a pledge in a very classy sorority.

XOXO,
Kate :)

2011

Hello My Loves!

I know you are all probably mad at me for not posting in a while (that is if anyone besides my mother reads this blog) but I decided to take time off from my blog while school was out of session.

I had a nice relax full holiday at home with my family, and sometimes friends.  My four week vacation was very much needed.  I've been going and going nonstop for the past year and a half and it was good to take the time and veg with my family.

Now that I'm back at school, my life once again is nonstop.  I have a pageant next week!! EEK! It came up so fast, and I still have so much to do.  And on top of everything I need to do, I tried on my evening gown and it did not fit! My gorgeous yellow dress that was bought and tailored to my body does not fit! You have no idea how depressed I am, because I love that dress so much.  I hate what college did to my body.  So now I'm on the hunt for a new dress and an alterer to alter my dress. Anyone have any suggestions?

Thats it for now!

XOXO,
Kate

P.S. Rush starts tomorrow and I am so excited! More posts to come!

Stole this from Allie....

I know I have not posted in a while, and I found this on my sister's blog, and I felt like doing it.  By the way I'm in the mood to blog so I will probably do more than one post tonight.

I've put the things that are true in bold.

01. You’re currently confused about someone’s feelings for you.

02. You have been in a serious relationship before.

03. You own an iPod of some sort.

04. You do not like your sibling’s girlfriend/boyfriend.

05. You drink too much alcohol.

06. You have been to the Olive Garden.

07. You have taken medicine of some sort this week.

08. It is really cold in your house right now.

09. You are extremely dependent on others.

10. You do not like to express your feelings in front of others.

11. You ate a lot of food today.

12. It doesn’t take much for you to cry.

13. People consider you a sappy sort of person.

14. Someone in your family is rich. used too :(

15. You have been to Disney World or Disneyland before.

16. You hate when people constantly talk about themselves.

17. You are a good listener, but you hate complainers.

18. Someone has called you for a serious medical emergency before.

19. You have had a serious surgery. (two actually)

20. Your house has a spare bedroom.

21. Your house is old.

22. You have at least one cousin under the age of three.

23. You have never held a baby before.

24. You can’t handle toddlers.

25. You have had a painting in your room.

26. You have been to Canada.

27. You have been to Mexico.

28. You love cherry flavored lollipops.

29. You celebrate Easter.

30. You observe Lent.

31. You are Catholic.

32. You do not believe in God.

33. Religion is not important to you.

34. You want to have a BIG family one day.

35.You would rather have more sons than daughters.

36. You have more aunts than uncles.

37. You hate being too cold.

38. You currently are way more tan than everyone else.Opposite, I refuse to tan

39. You wear shoes in your house.

40. Your parents are clean freaks.

41. You are more messy than clean.

42. You are currently angry at someone.

43. Patience is not a virtue to you.

44. Your desk is extremely clean.

45. Your bed sheets are either blue, green, black, or white.

46. When you hear ‘black & white’ it reminds you of Katy Perry’s ‘hot n cold’ song.

47. You have no clue what that song is.

48. You think rap artists are completely pathetic.

49. You are glad George Bush is out of office.

50. Politics are boring to you.

51. You take a vitamin daily.

52. You feel like you are sick often.

53. You hate throwing up.

54. You think it’s gross when people set food down on their desk at school with no napkin.

55. You also find it gross that people sit on top of desks.

56. You are now cringing at the thought of someone’s food where someone’s ass was.

57. You love getting bubble baths.

58. You do not like chocolate at all.

59. You are allergic to nuts.

60. You have been stung by a bee before.

61. You have been to the emergency room before for something.

62. One of your parents is 50 or older. ?

63. You are the baby of your family.

64. You hate broccoli.

65. Cooked carrots are good, though.

66. You go on tumblr or blogspot too much.

67. You are really comfortable right now.

68. You like witty t-shirts.

69. You are a major fan of underground bands.

70. You have been on an airplane before.

71. You are not afraid of heights.

72. You consider yourself paranoid.

73. You have had a panic attack before.

74. The thought of being old and alone bothers you.

75. You would choose the elderly over children.

76. You feel like you’re living in the wrong decade.

77. You have smoked weed before.

78. You think it’s way too cold outside right now.

79. You love the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning.

80. You would rather go to bed early and get up early.

81. You feel like the early bird catches the worm.

82. You are a big breakfast eater.

83. You are currently suffering from the common cold.

84. You are craving something salty. (always)

85. You have been in a car today.

86. There is something plugged in near you.

87. You have heard of the TV show ‘Private Practice.’

88. You do not like medical television shows.

89. You prefer horror to comedies.

90. You adore Leo & Kate.

91. You think high-waisted skirts look good (sometimes)

92. You hate cheesy movies.

93. You enjoy camping out.

94. Bugs don’t bother you.

95. You do well in school without trying.

96. You are extremely jealous of someone currently.

97. You feel like you have changed a lot from 08-2010.

98. You like energy drinks.

99. You like italics.

100. You know the entire script of Mean Girls. I know parts of it

feet. :/

So today, I did something I've never done something my entire life.  I quit an activity without seeing it through to the end.  I quit crew.  It was not  because I could not handle the workout, or I did not have the endurance or I did not like waking up at 4:50 in the morning.  It was because of my feet.  I have a condition called flat feet, or for those of you who do not know what that is, I do not have arches in my feet, so they pronate inward, causing pain like no other. I lived seventeen and a half years (of my 18) with pain. every. single. day.  I have a HUGE tolerance for pain, thanks to that. I have had two surgeries on my feet because of this condition and has only been in the last six months that I have not had pain. Which is a big deal.  

When I started crew, I did not think that I would have this issue since I'd be sitting in a boat, but it ended up being one.  The combination of the position of my feet, with the pressure I had to put on them while I rowed brought back the pain that I had thought I had ditched.  I tried to stick it out, but I realized that its not worth having the pain again.  I liked not having pain, not having the constant reminder of my defect, and when it came back I was super upset.  I called my mom this morning crying because I did  not want to quit, but I did not want to have the pain anymore.  We decided that in the long run, quitting would be better for me.

I actually liked being on a team for once, having a coach, having teammates, entering regattas, winning or losing at something.  I've never really had that experience, because of my feet.  I had to stop soccer because running hurt my feet and my knees, I had to quit dance because my feet hurt and the teacher did not understand.  My feet have dictated to me my athletic life, and sometimes I wish I had feet that were normal.  I want to be on a team, I want to be in shape, I want to be athletic. But my "disability" has prevented me from doing that stuff my entire life.  

People around me do not understand what I go through on a daily basis, my family understands to some extent, but they will never comprehend what I go through.  Other people I meet who have flat feet do not understand because their condition is not as severe as mine.  Even my podiatrist said that I had the worse case he had ever seen.  Though I wish I was born without this defect, I would not have my life any other way.  I know my feet have made me discover things about myself, and things that you do not think about that often.  I value every step I take, because these feet have taught me some valuable lessons.

I am really sad that I had to quit another sport due to this.  I liked crew, and I feel like I could have been good at it.  But I got a taste of a pain free life, and I want to indulge myself on it,  I know someday I'll find a sport or an athletic activity that I will be able to do.  I hope my teammates go on to have a wonderful season, and I'll be rooting for them all the way.

XOXO,

Kate

Another thought....

I know I'm not the only person who reads this now, because I have had several people come up to me and tell me about how they read my blog and liked the idea.  If you like it, go ahead and make a blog your self! It takes all of five minutes, and its a great way to procrastinate your homework.  And its here forever (unless you delete it) so in four years when you're graduating from college you can look back and read posts from your freshman year, and remember all the good times you had!  I know my blog is helping me work through thoughts in my head and it can help you work through things too. So my advice to everyone is to start a blog, it does not take long, but its a way for you to remember everything you have done.

Here's the link to creating a blog:

https://www.google.com/accounts/NewAccount?service=blogger&continue=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.blogger.com%2Floginz%3Fd%3D%252Fcreate-blog.g%26a%3DADD_SERVICE_FLAG&hl=en&sendvemail=true&followup=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.blogger.com%2Floginz%3Fd%3D%252Fhome%26a%3DSERVICE_ONLY&naui=8



I've done the first step for you, all you need to do now is fill in the information.  I hope to see you all on blogging soon! Let me know if you start one and I'll follow it. :)


XOXO,
Kate

Godspell!

Hello Lovies!

Godspell opened this Friday, and we had a pretty good sized house! I personally think we did a great job and I'm super excited for the shows this week.  After the first show they had a reception in the theater building, afterword, I stayed and helped cleaned up with some friends and we brought everything to Alison's apartment. We hung out there for a while and then we went to the townies and hung out at one of the guy's in the show's  place.  I had so much fun hanging out with everyone, even though we didn't do much.  I feel like I never get out here and it was nice to hang out with people other than the girls on my hall.  I hope I get to spend more time with these people, I know I'm going to be sad after Godspell closes and not being able to see all the conservatory kids all the time anymore.  I know that most of the cast disliked being in the show, but I enjoy it.  I love working with everyone and I'm sad to see that its almost over.  Even though our director's crazy and I hate my costume, I think its worth it, and I know that sounds funny because half the cast hates this entire experience, but I think that it was good for all of us, and whether we realize it or not, I think we all learned things about ourselves throughout the process.

I'm super excited for my family (the real one and the greek family) to come and see my play! I miss going to bbq's and parties and dinners with all of them, and I'm excited for them to come up and see my school environment, even if its just for a few days.  We're going into San Fran on Saturday before the show, and on Sunday we're going to a Kings game! Wooo!

Godspell closes on Saturday, and then Thanksgiving is next week! My god time has flown by! I get to see one of my best friends in the world next week when she flys in from Florida back to wonderful California! Apparently she was in Moorpark this past weekend and wanted me to come down and see her, but I couldn't because of the show, I hope she's not mad at me for that.


Alas, I have rambled on like I always do, and I probably repeated the same thought over and over. haha. I have to go write my 8 page research report! :/ wish me good luck!

XOXO,
Kate